I'm on a bumpy ride.

Loads of stuff has happened in the past few weeks. Seriously, loads.

School is really taking it's toll on me, and I'm not sure how much more I can take. I have so many feelings inside that need to be talked out- and my Dad isn't here and he's the one who I usually tell everything to, so that's a bit annoying. Decisions about my future, memorising and friendships are all hanging in the balance of my life right now. And honestly, my little brain, heart and mind are all confused.

Boys. Pfft, forget about it. I don't have any chuffing time for myself anymore, let alone boys! That's a big change I've noticed- I couldn't care less about my appearance for school anymore. Sure, I still make the effort. But inside I'm like 'Danielle you could do the same with no make up on.' A crazy thought, me turning up to school with no make up on. But being in Year 10 has taught me that school doesn't equal socialising- it equals work. Work, revision, hand cramps- basically my life now. I cannot WAIT for the summer holidays where I will be able to sit back and relax on holiday. Being in school is doing my head in at the moment. I'm trying to not let it affect me, but people are also getting on my nerves too. Basically, all I want is to go to school, do the work and come home. But certain people are making this difficult by bitching and whispering. My little 'group' has divided and it's stupid. We all have our opinions and I am shocked by some of them. Obviously I can't express all my feelings on here. Which is another thing, I might start a private blog, or another form of 'therapy' because copycats are lurking and it's just blagging my head.

Decisions about my future are actually becoming a little easier for me...but it's just what I do with myself from now until then. urgh, there's so much I want to say on here but I can't. I never used to get restricted, and now I do.

I just want things to be simple. But hey, life isn't simple is it. I guess I'm just going to have to learn from these experiences. I'm in a really strange way at the moment and it's nice to see who cares and who doesn't. At least I know now.