Crisis!

I'm going to London next week and I NEED these shorts but they're not in Topshop anymore! :(

The gorgeous Marina from Marina and the Diamonds has been pictured wearing them. I love her because she's not afraid to go all out with the oufits! I've also seen them on BeautyCrush on Youtube on one of her recent videos- urgh I need them for London! Going to Topshop this afternoon, please be there?

On the plus side, I love her make-up and hair on here. She's stunning!

Anyway, I'm actually really scared about going to London :/ I'm covering my true feelings with smiles and excitement- however on the inside i am STILL hurting. Still! I'm made of tough stuff, believe you me. I've learnt and experienced a hell of a lot of feelings in this past year and i've come out a tougher person- but their faces just break me and make me feel so small. I just hope it's not going to be as bad as I think it is. I've got some great friends going too, and hopefully I'll make friends with them both again :/ One of them in particular I've spoke about before- it'd be a dream come true to have him back in my life again. I'm holding out for that hug, that'd be better than any Mac Lipstick. Yeah, the whole point of going to London is to go and get something different- and I probably will. But if I could get a smile, conversation and a hug out of him- it'd mean the entire universe to me.