A dream is a wish your heart makes.

I love the quote that I titled this post with. It's so cute.
So, speaking of dreams- I had the most freakiest dream ever last night. Because it's what I have been wishing to come true since nearly a year ago. I'll go into more detail...

I'm not sure if i've mentioned it before on this blog, but lets just say I lost a best friend who was very dear to my heart...and he still is. Last year, him and his best friend broke my heart. Actually, more than broke it. More like stomped on it, smashed it with a hammer, dropped a whale on it and crumpled it until it was no more. No exaggeration, honest. What I have gone through is total heart break and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. It's horrendous.
But even though my old best friend did a terrible thing(sorry, can't put it on here)..my heart still aches for him. I love him. But not in that boyfriend kind of way. I love him with all of my heart, like he's mine forever. And both him and his best friend are going on the London trip- the trip that I am also going on. And I had a dream that me and my old best friend reunited. We put our past behind us and talked, laughed and remembered. The look on his face when I walk past is heartbreaking, because it cries out 'sorry'. I know he isn't like what he did to me- most people put it down to jealousy.
Honestly, I don't actually have a clue why we aren't as close as we once were. Even though I was so young, I felt a feeling for him that I haven't had for anyone else. It's not silly or stupid, it was natural and I will never, ever forget the way he used to make my tummy turn to butterflies.
Him and his best friend are currently everywhere I go. Maybe thats a sign? I'd love to make peace with them both- because I'm over it. I am who I am and I couldn't care less anymore. All I want is to have my best friend back- and that is all I will want until I get it.