Life- it's so very different.

This time last year, I liked a guy doing his work experience in my form. Now, it's my turn for work experience. And what all happened, the feelings are so fresh that they feel like it happened yesterday. But it didn't. My week of happiness and many months of heartache are all a thing of the past- I simply have to take it as a learning experience. Learn that, life- it's not easy. But the thing is, learn. Learn from your mistakes and listen to those around you and the advice available. Also, I've learnt that some guys aren't going to treat me right, treat anybody right. It's simply down to personality and upbringing.

It's a sad thought, however. Exactly a year ago on Thursday was one of the happiest days of my life. I felt on top of the world. So much has happened, however in London we didn't exactly have a conversation...but I don't know, it doesn't sound like much. We looked at each other and exchanged words. I think once he got over the fact that his friends were talking to me, that I was actually a pretty down to earth, fun girl. I know he knows he got me wrong, I accept what has happened. What I loved was talking to my once best friend, that fills me with utter joy. I'll remember it forever.

So, what will my life be like in another year then? I've already experienced something like this. I used to like this guy not October 2010, but October 2009. And at my school we do a run every year for charity. In October 2009, I remember seeing the guy running around and me thinking "wow, he's gorgeous!" and "i'll never get to talk to him!" ... fast forward a year, and I had been out and about with him at least 10 times, got his phone number, been to a festival with him, layed on him in a car and had long, heart to heart conversations. October 2010- he told me he liked me. A year ago, my thoughts were totally different- it was just weird and nice to think, wow..this wasn't like this this time last year.

Anyway, this brings me back to my original point. What on earth will my life be like next year? Busy, i'm guessing what with Year 11. But I'm also very optimistic about my future. The world is a big place with many doors just waiting to be opened, and I want to unlock as many as I can.