London!

Tomorrow is the day! I think the best thing is going to be to go with an open mind. Because I usually visualise what I want to happen in my head, and get disappointed when it doesn't happen. So, I guess if I don't expect anything, I can't her hurt? But in a way, I am so curious to find out if we'll become friends again. I really really wish and hope so.
My horoscope also said that something will happen to my hearts desire and going forward is the way forward. I'm taking on board what it's said- I will go forward and accept, and I hope they do the same.

Anyway, London will be an amazing experience and I will take pictures and I will have a wonderful time. I'm really looking forward to it :)

The Disney Princess Game!

Princess Quiz Cinderella
[ ] One of your parents is dead
[] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[x] You love to dress up
[x] You love animals
[x ] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming
[ ] Your mom is really strict
[ ] that’s just because she got knocked up (wait, what??)
[] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you
[x] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes
[ ] You have left your shoes at a friends house before
[x ] You have blond hair
TOTAL: 5

Belle (Beauty and the Beast):
[x] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
[] You’ve been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[ ] You are not shy at all
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird
[] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[ ] You love to take care of people in need
[x] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty
[x ] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out
TOTAL: 6

Jasmine (Aladdin):
[ ] Your dad is rich
[ ] You are very clever
[x] You’ve been with someone way different from you
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else
[x] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[] You don’t have a lot of (good) friends
[ ] You’re independent
[ ] You are wealthy
[] Your parents try to control your life
TOTAL: 4

Ariel (The Little Mermaid):
[ ] Your parents expect a lot from you
[ ] You really try to follow the rules, but its hard for you
[ ] You’re a bit of a trouble maker
[ ] You’re the youngest in your family
[ ] You have a lot of sisters
[ ] You collect something
[x] You have/had long hair
[x] You are adventurous
[x] You’re extremely curious
[ x] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible
TOTAL: 4

Snow White:
[ ] You know that you’re beautiful
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[x] You’ve almost been killed
[x] You have at least seven good friends
[ ] You’ve had food poisoning
[ ] You have/had short hair
[ x] You get along with almost everyone
[x] All of your friends are different
[x] You love to have a good time
[ x] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in
TOTAL: 6

Mulan:
[ ] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[ ] People wish you could be a bit more girly
[ ] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
[x] You’ve had a physical fight with someone
[] You have/had considered running away from home
[ ] Your parents try to plan your life out
[x ] A lot of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[x] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them
TOTAL: 4

Aurora (Sleeping Beauty) :
[ ] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
[x] You almost died at a very young age
[x ] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful
[x] You have a decent singing voice
[] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[ ] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You’re adopted
[x] You’re very romantic
[ x] Pink is one of your favorite colors
TOTAL: 5

Pocahontas:
[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[x] You are more spiritual than religious
[ ] You’ve been in an interracial relationship
[x ] One of your family members is dead
[x] Your parents are very protective of you
[ ] Someone you know has been in war
[x] You love nature
[ ] You have/had black hair
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
[x] You’re very adventurous
TOTAL: 7

TinkerBell (Peter Pan):
[ ] You get jealous easily
[x ] You loved your childhood
[ ] You like to fly
[x ] You believe in magic.
[x ] You’re 5’2 or under
[x ] You hate pirates
[x ] You love sparkles
[x] People underestimate you
[ ] You get angry easily
[x] You have/had a treehouse
TOTAL: 7

Alice (Alice In Wonderland):
[x] You have/had a pet rabbit
[] You love to play cards
[x] You constantly know the time
[] You get in sticky situations
[] You have been to a court
[ ] You have fallen asleep while doing homework
[x] You have had a tea party
[] You like hats
[ ] You’re late
[ ] You know how to play croquet
TOTAL: 3

Meg (Hercules):
[ ] Your boyfriend is strong
[x] You have gotten involved with the wrong people before
[ ] You are very convincing
[ ] You have fallen in love before
[x ] You have had your heartbroken
[] You find an interest in Greek mythology
[x] You lie sometimes
[ ] You pretend to be someone you’re not
[x] You have been used
[x ] Purple is one of your favourite colours.
TOTAL: 5

I'm most like Belle, Pocahontas, Tinkerbell and Snow White and I am least like Alice! What about you? 

My Story of Songs.

So basically, I put together this 'story' incorporating some well known songs. Let me know what you think? :) x

Let me hold you for the last time, it’s the last chance to feel again. Love is only a feeling anyway, go on and take a bow. I’ve been roaming around, always looking down and all i see…painted faces fill the places i can’t reach. you know that i could use somebody, someone like you. Let me take you there, I wanna take you there. What’s it like in New York City? What’s my name? You are so beautiful to me. I wish I could press re-wind, and re-write every line to the story of me and you.

You had your dreams, I had mine. When you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you’re gunna believe them. But these things will change. I’ll forget the world that I knew, but I swear I won’t forget you. I’ll never forget you. 

You’ve got complications and a reputation, wouldn’t wanna get in your way. When my world is falling apart, you smile, I smile. 

Here we go again, I left my head and my heart on the dance floor. When I met you, I didn’t really like you. First impression was you was somebody who’d walk right by when I waved at you and said ‘Hi’, but they say bad beginnings make happy endings…you’re my undercover lover. You had me at hello, you make me feel like I’m living a teenage dream.

Oh, these times are hard, yeah they’re making us crazy. Don’t give up on me, baby. A moment of love, a dream, a laugh, a kiss, a cry, our rights, our wrongs- our moments. But nothing lasts forever, and we both know hearts can change. 

L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N, in 5 years time- I may not know you. Never mind, I’ll find someone like you. I guess it’s just a silly song about you, and how I lost you and your brown eyes. I need this space, just like you need it. 

Oh baby, I’m a rockstar.

Forever and Always, Mr Brightside.

The Last Song.

Fighting back the tears, I struggle on and watch The Last Song right to the very end. Now, I'll be honest- I'm not Miley Cyrus' biggest fan. But this film sure is beautiful.

It's about a stubborn, rebellious teenage girl who fights back her true feelings- whether it be for her father, or her music. As the film progresses, we delve deeper into the heart of Ronnie, discovering that she isn't as ice cold as she makes out. With heartbreaking, emotional scenes; it's a film for one of those days. Unlike anything Miley has ever done- we explore her truly amazing talent. Love and music are the two things that will bring us joy in our lives.

Ok, so it's not letting me upload any photos. But believe me, go check it out. I never thought I'd say it, but it makes me kinda like Miley Cyrus.

Victoria 'Pixie' Lott.

She's been my idol from day one.

Ever since I heard her debut single 'Mama Do' - I knew i'd love Pixie Lott for a long time. She's sexy, sassy and of corse- blonde! She has one of the most beautiful singing voices I have ever heard.

Every single song of hers, I love. I love her sense of fashion too. Her magazine spread on her fashion tips is hanging on my bedroom wall- she is my inspiration.

On holiday last year, I had the pleasure of being told I looked like her. And it's the best compliment I have ever had. My hair isn't quite as blonde as hers, and I have blue eyes- she has brown. But as far as our faces go- they're very similar. I'm not suggesting I'm her double or anything- but I can see where the person who told me was coming from. 

Her sense of style is just a-mazing. She's designed her own range of clothing for Lipsy and been invited to countless fashion shows. I had the pleasure of seeing her last year at Party In The Park in Leeds. She was by far one of the best acts and I just totally look up to her!

She's also wanted to be performer all of her life, so she's defiantly worked for where she is today. 

Boys and Girls

Nothing Compares

Without You

Band Aid

Turn It Up

Can't Make This Over

Gravity

My favourite songs by Pixie. Each one has powerful, beautiful lyrics and she wrote most of her songs herself- which few artists do these days. 

It'd be an absolute dream come true to meet her one day.

Do you believe?

I for one, believe in an after life. And today, I feel like I have somewhat come into contact with my beloved Grandma for the first time.

I believe that your heart will forever be your guide- and she did too. My dad was telling me today how he once asked his mother about how she knew what was the right thing to do. And she replied 'your heart will tell you.' And I also believe exactly that.

I know it may be nothing, but for me I felt a warm feeling inside. I felt happy and a tear came into my eye. I never met my Grandma, and I really wish I had because from what i've heard- she was an absolute gem. It just made me happy because even though she never knew me, I know she loves me. I think I am like her in a lot of ways- I hope I am anyway. She was a wise, carefree woman with a strong head on her shoulders and I wish I'd have met her, even if it was for a couple of hours.

However, she still lives on inside my heart and maybe I will get to meet her one day; you never know.

Crisis!

I'm going to London next week and I NEED these shorts but they're not in Topshop anymore! :(

The gorgeous Marina from Marina and the Diamonds has been pictured wearing them. I love her because she's not afraid to go all out with the oufits! I've also seen them on BeautyCrush on Youtube on one of her recent videos- urgh I need them for London! Going to Topshop this afternoon, please be there?

On the plus side, I love her make-up and hair on here. She's stunning!

Anyway, I'm actually really scared about going to London :/ I'm covering my true feelings with smiles and excitement- however on the inside i am STILL hurting. Still! I'm made of tough stuff, believe you me. I've learnt and experienced a hell of a lot of feelings in this past year and i've come out a tougher person- but their faces just break me and make me feel so small. I just hope it's not going to be as bad as I think it is. I've got some great friends going too, and hopefully I'll make friends with them both again :/ One of them in particular I've spoke about before- it'd be a dream come true to have him back in my life again. I'm holding out for that hug, that'd be better than any Mac Lipstick. Yeah, the whole point of going to London is to go and get something different- and I probably will. But if I could get a smile, conversation and a hug out of him- it'd mean the entire universe to me.

Artist of the Week(4)

Hola guys, so I thought i'd do a bit of One Direction spam- because i love them (: so here it goes...

(l-r)

Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, Harry Styles, Zayn Malik, Niall Horan.

These five lovely lads make up the fabulous, beautiful and talented One Direction. They all entered as solo artists on The X Factor, but failed to make it through to judges houses...on their own that is. Simon Cowell surprised us all and put them together to make a band and enter them to judges houses as a five piece(in a nut shell, Cowell's best EVER decision!)

Every single Saturday night, these boys sang their hearts out and completely melted mine! Even though they didn't win the show, they have a record deal and are currently doing the UK X Factor Live Tour- which as you know i went to and it was AMAZING to see these in the flesh! Harry Styles looked at me- i swear! ;)

All in all, I love these boys because of their passion for the music industry- their looks are simply a bonus. I have their book and I enjoyed reading it so much because they opened up about their past and what they like in a girl etc. 

It'd be a pleasure to meet these guys someday and maybe even get to know them- dreams can come true right? :)

I'm not like an OTT fan, but lets just say i've been hit with One Direction Infection ;) 

xxx

My Secrets.

I am self conscious about my top lip. I’m scared to get close to people in case they start to judge me.

I have been in love with my best friend for 13 years, and we haven’t spoken in 10.

But the kind of love it is isn't typical love, it's the 'i miss you' kind of love.

I still refer to him as my best friend, when in fact we will probably never speak again.

I secretly always want to be the centre of attention. If I’m not I feel like I’m not good enough.

I tend to smile even on the toughest of days.

I’m scared of leaving my life feeling like I haven’t achieved what I was put on the planet to do.

I sometimes wish I was somebody else, even though I’m happy with myself.

I’m still hurting after something that happened a year ago.

I think about things way too much. I analyze things that other people probably didn’t even notice.

I’m scared that the people close to me will eventually hate me.

I want to make YouTube videos, but I’m scared people who I don’t trust will watch them.

I want to get married before I have children.

I want to see as much of the world as I possibly can.

I believe I was put on the planet for a certain reason, but I’m not quite sure what.

I think about what my life might be like in the future practically every day.

I want to make everyone I know proud.

I’d love to interview celebrities and go to all the top fashion shows.

I’m scared and exited about my future.

I want people to like me.

I’m scared to get close to people incase I ever have to lose them.

I'm scared about going to London and getting close to people who once hurt me.

I sing when I'm sad.

I try to pick myself back up every time I fall down.

Sometimes I don't let my real emotions show through.

I blog because it’s like therapy.

When I like the way I look, I become extremely happy.

I like talking and telling my tale.

I’ve got a whole in my heart, and I need someone to fix it. 

I love One Direction and it would be a dream come true to meet them. <3

The littlest things make me smile.

I live by the quote “don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”

When I find a song that fits the situation I am in, I cry with relief.

Just a few of my secrets I felt like sharing. I'm not trying to get attention or whatever, I just needed to let them out and this seemed like the right place. Thank you. x Oh, and by the way- if you wanna do it, feel free. It helps. :)

OOTD and a little blog post.

Hey guys, so today was a non uniform day for Comic Relief and we got to come in what ever we want- which is a nice surprise for our school! So I decided on a flowery top and a matching(ish) skirt. The photo's aren't very good quality but it looked good in real life :) :

Oh, my Dad turned 50- that's why there are quite a few cards in the background! :P

I love this top so much. The pink flowers really compliment my skin colour and bring out the blue in my bluey/green eyes. Pink is one of my favourite colours anyway, as are purple and light blue! :)

I just fancied doing a little blog post. This week has been so strange. Wednesday was parents evening and it really boosted my confidence because all of them were so lovely to me and one of them said i was the perfect student and a 'gem'... awwwww! (: but some people have seemed to have been wanting to get me down this week, and I don't know why :/ i'm not a nasty person- i treat others as they would like to be treated. Maybe i'm just being a bit sensitive- but the impression i've got is that you either really like me, or you don't. I can't help it, I guess. You can't win everybody..

But on the plus side, on the London trip i'm going on we are doing a workshop with PINEAPPLE DANCE STUDIOS. OH MY ACTUAL GOD! :') cannot waiiiiiit! Hope it's like the most amazing thing ever and I make a really good impression :D hehe :)

So, I guess this week has been rewarding and a little bit confusing. I just take each day as it comes and chill. I'm me, and I can't be anybody else. This sounds so vain, but I love who I am and I am glad about who I am. Like Gaga sings, 'there's nothing wrong with loving who you are' - and there isn't. Everyone should love who they are, we are all unique after all. 

It's all about the future.

Just got back from parents evening, and overall I'm doing rather well. My languages teacher is very impressed with me, however still felt the need to ask me to go make him coffee(men!!) hehe, science teachers are happy with my results and they boosted my confidence a lot, as I didn't believe in myself at the start of the subject. Drama- brilliant! I really want to do well in that subject, because I would love to be an actress. Even if I was in a soap like Eastenders or something, it'd be brill. My english teacher would love me to get an A, and I would too. And as for Maths(my unlucky subject) i'm scraping a pass, which is brill for me. My teacher says I am 80% focused and 20% not, and I need to be 100% focused because it's my future. The girl who distracts me is one of my best friends and I don't know how to tell her that I can't talk to her in lesson anymore. But I need to, because that extra 20% I listen will mean I will be able to achieve my grade C. I know I am capable of doing it, I'd be absolutely gutted if I didn't pass maths. This night has really opened my eyes as to just how important this year and next really is. It'll change my life- and I want a hell of a good life. And how do I do that? Hard work. I am a hard working girl and I do try my best in ever lesson, I do love to learn. So I guess I'm gunna have to become a bit of a geek- but I don't care. I need to pass my exams so i'll have a very pleasant and happy future- which is what I want.

A dream is a wish your heart makes.

I love the quote that I titled this post with. It's so cute.
So, speaking of dreams- I had the most freakiest dream ever last night. Because it's what I have been wishing to come true since nearly a year ago. I'll go into more detail...

I'm not sure if i've mentioned it before on this blog, but lets just say I lost a best friend who was very dear to my heart...and he still is. Last year, him and his best friend broke my heart. Actually, more than broke it. More like stomped on it, smashed it with a hammer, dropped a whale on it and crumpled it until it was no more. No exaggeration, honest. What I have gone through is total heart break and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. It's horrendous.
But even though my old best friend did a terrible thing(sorry, can't put it on here)..my heart still aches for him. I love him. But not in that boyfriend kind of way. I love him with all of my heart, like he's mine forever. And both him and his best friend are going on the London trip- the trip that I am also going on. And I had a dream that me and my old best friend reunited. We put our past behind us and talked, laughed and remembered. The look on his face when I walk past is heartbreaking, because it cries out 'sorry'. I know he isn't like what he did to me- most people put it down to jealousy.
Honestly, I don't actually have a clue why we aren't as close as we once were. Even though I was so young, I felt a feeling for him that I haven't had for anyone else. It's not silly or stupid, it was natural and I will never, ever forget the way he used to make my tummy turn to butterflies.
Him and his best friend are currently everywhere I go. Maybe thats a sign? I'd love to make peace with them both- because I'm over it. I am who I am and I couldn't care less anymore. All I want is to have my best friend back- and that is all I will want until I get it.

Feels Like Summer!!

Hiiii! Omg i just felt like blogging because i feel sooooo summery today! The sun is shining and it's not necessarily warm..but it just looks and feels like summer! I've made a summer playlist and everything on iTunes because i just wanna get into that summer mood, and it's worked because i am super hyper and feel like running in the sea and splashing about, drinking cocktails and laughing and not having a care in the world. I'm gunna do that one day, I promised myself hehe :)

So, it's March now and this is a pretty busy month for me but i'm gunna make it the best! Already seen The X Factor Live Tour and that was amazzzzzing and I actually miss One Direction! They're so beaut in real life!

So yeah, that was amazing and i love One Direction more than ever hehe!

Anyways, it's only FIVE MONTHS till my holiday and i'm so exited. Two whole weeks of chilling out :') it'll be nice and warm too and i'll be able to chill out on the sunbed with my ipod listening to my summer tunes. My ex is joining us on the 2nd week...so that should be interesting :| i'm gunna do my best to keep out of the way i think! Hopefully i'll make some mates so i can go off with them haha!

Hmmm, wanted to upload some pics from my last holiday but it's not letting me! I'll try again...


Nope! not letting me :( oh well, listening to Jessie J so my mood hasn't been affected :) how amazing is she! bought her album and i larrrrve it!

So, i'll leave you with this thought: think of your fave Lady Gaga song and sing it as you check out the rest of my posts. Hehe, cya later :) x

X FACTOUR TOUR 1ST MARCH 2011!!!

Oh my days... IT WAS AMAZING!!!!


Cher, Paije, Aiden, Mary, Katie, Wagner, One Direction, Rebecca and Matt all performed and it was incredible. Was entertained throughout and at times I couldn't really see, but when I did it was magical. Just being in the same room as them(especially One Direction!!!) was amazing and I was like 3metres away from Harry Styles! ;) The platform turned so I got a good view of all the lads tho hehe.

I'd actually say everyone was good, even Wagner! I'd totally go again! :D Got a One Direction tshirt and a poster, so I might post some pics soon! :) x