This post is linked to my 'Dreams.' post.

"A dream is a wish your heart makes when you’re fast asleep. In dreams, you will lose your heartaches. Whatever you wish for, you keep. Have faith in your dreams, and someday, your rainbow will come smiling through. No matter how your heart is grieving, if you keep on believing, the dreams that you wish will come true.”

—	Cinderella

Everyday I'm Shuffling.

The title is actually really true. Everyday, it seems to be the same, like i'm never moving forward, never getting anywhere. Remember when I said I loved my best friend, well he recently got a girlfriend and I actually wasn't bothered- it meant that I could finally move on. So, that means, I don't actually like anybody. For the first time in my life, I don't like anybody(apart from famous people...obvs) and it feels so strange. Good things come to those who wait, right? I've been single for nearly two years now. And I'm not being bigheaded, but even some of the fittest lads I know are like 'wow, i'm surprised no ones snapped you up..' but then, I think "well, why haven't you?" It's like, I get to a certain stage and then everything just stops. However, I don't mind waiting as such, because maybe one day I'll get my knight in shining armour quicker than most people. Playing the waiting game just gets a little same old same old, a little boring...

Dreams.

Out of everything that can be taken away from you, the ability to dream will always remain. That is one of the things that warms my heart the most. Like everyone, I think about things that I'd love to come true- sometimes, I even believe they will. People can tell you you're stupid, but you can guarantee they also dream about something that is not within their reach.

The Royal Wedding took place today- and I believe that was a fairytale I watched today. Catherine(Kate) Middleton simply went to university to progress with her studies- who would have known Prince William went there too. The fact that, growing up, Kate had pictures of him on her wall, and today he placed a ring upon her finger- it's almost impossible to imagine; but it happened. People probably told her she was mad for liking him from afar, but just look at her now. Princess Catherine.

Stories like this make dreaming even more special, because these guys are living proof that dreams can come true. Good things come to those who wait, and it certainly did for Kate. I just love their whole story and I'm totally mesmerised with it. Perhaps my dream might come true one day, too. In a way, Kate is one of my idols because of her perseverance. She liked the guy, got to know him, yet remained herself throughout. It's easy to see why Prince William fell for her.

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The Royal Wedding.

29th April 2011- the day Prince William marries Catherine Middleton. I wish them nothing but the best for today, their special day and their future together.
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Idols/Inspirations.

Today in school, we had a health awareness day. People came in to talk to us about alcohol and drugs, impact and consequence, community, and smoking. In one particular class, they asked us who our idols were. Being in school, I was a little bit brain dead and the first person who came into my head was my Dad. And its true, my dad is my main idol/role model. Along with my mum of corse, I love them both.

But, my Dad isn't really well known-is he? I mean, I could go on and on but nobody would probably care because he isn't a big name. So, hows about I pick some more famous people, and see if I get a better reaction?

Jessie J

Now probably, some people think this ones a little bit stupid. 'She's not been out there for very long' blah blah blah. Truth is, she's been working her butt off for 6 years doing what she loves best- songwriting. She's wrote for various other big names. Initially, I didn't quite like her. But it wasn't until I stopped making judgements and actually listened to her that I started having more of an open mind.

She's confident

She's bi

She actually has talent

She writes from the heart

She's a true inspiration of mind because she's not afraid of being herself. She is who she is- Jessie J.

 Rihanna

Rihanna inspires me so so so much. Like Jessie, she's herself and will not change for anybody. Her songs are incredible- from catchy beats to tearful ballads; she can do it all. The picture is kind of like the evolution of the bajan beauty. Her red hair embraces her fiery personality and I just love her.

Pixie Lott

I believe Pixie Lott is one of the most beautiful women in the world- it's an absolute honour to have people say I look like her. She's everything I aspire to be. 

Other people that inspire me:

One Direction- for not giving up on their dreams. They prove the younger generation do have talent, and that if you really try- you will succeed(Liam alone proves that.) Harry proves that you can still be serious about singing, but have a cheeky side. Niall proves hard work playing an instrument really does get recognised. Zayn proves that everybody in a band gets recognition. And finally, Louis proves that not everyone in showbiz is stuck up.

Lady Gaga- because I now accept who I am. I accept that everybody is different, but everybody is also beautiful. 

Fizzy Drinks Lip Balms!

I don't know about you, but I occasionally like a refreshing, cool fizzy drink. 

What if you could get them in a lip balm, so you can have a taste anytime you want?

Tadaaa!

These have been out for god knows how long, but I've finally gone and bought myself one! It was a spontaneous thing because I was at the tills in Primark and they were 1 pound 50 and there was a tub full right next to me...I had to have one :P

So I got the Sprite one, but there's pretty much every fizzy drink to choose from :) It's not sticky and gives a lovely, healthy shine to my lips.  They smell great too, just like the drinks! I recommend them! 

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Stars and Stripes.

Watching the repeat of 90210(best tv show everr!), trying to get into the American spirit...

I love this top so much! It hangs lovely and it's strange because red reeeally isn't my colour, but the blue so is. And luckily, the top suits me- so for once, i don't actually mind wearing red without worrying if i look like a tomato or not! :)


I love the whole American vibe, I'd love to see every single part of it. Miami, Boston, New York; everywhere. In the future, I have the opportunity to go and work in America for a short time, and I think I might take it :)

Favourite Songs.

These are in no particular order, just the order I think of them in. :)

Dreaming With A Broken Heart- John Mayer
Free Fallin' - John Mayer 
Eh Eh(Nothing Else I Can Say)- Lady GaGa
With You- Chris Brown
Boys and Girls- Pixie Lott
No Surprise- Daughtry
What About Now- Daughtry 
Sweet Child O' Mine- Guns N' Roses
Just The Way You Are- Bruno Mars 
Where is the Love?- Black Eyed Peas
Wake Me Up When September Ends- Green Day
Use Somebody- Kings of Leon 
Learn to Fly- Foo Fighters
Radioactive- Kings of Leon
Times Like These- Foo Fighters
Summerboy- Lady GaGa
Gotta Be Somebody- Nickelback
Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
Have Faith In Me- A Day To Remember
Love Is Only A Feeling- The Darkness
Hard- Rihanna
Count On Me- Bruno Mars
Talking to the Moon- Bruno Mars
Dakota- Stereophonics
Man Who Can't Be Moved- The Script
Frisky- Tinie Tempah
Na Na Na Na- Kaiser Chiefs
All You Need Is Love- The Beatles
You Had Me At Hello- A Day To Remember
Hey There Delilah- Plain White T's
How To Save A Life- The Fray
Never Forget You- Noisettes
Let Me Take You There- Plain White T's
Fading- Rihanna
Photograph- Nickelback
Rockstar- Nickelback
Rockstar 101- Rihanna
Finders Keepers- You Me At Six
Next To You- Chris Brown
I Gotta Feeling- Black Eyed Peas
Wonderwall- Oasis
Champagne Supernova- Oasis
Let It Be- The Beatles
Little Lion Man- Mumford & Sons
Nobody's Perfect- Jessie J
Open Up Your Eyes- Daughtry
Sex On Fire- Kings of Leon
Stay With Me- You Me At Six
She Will Be Loved- Maroon 5
Stacy's Mom- Fountains of Wayne
I Like It Rough- Lady GaGa
Skin- Rihanna
What's My Name?- Rihanna
Supernova- Mr Hudson
Sweet Disposition- The Temper Trap
For The First Time- The Script
Beautiful People- Chris Brown
Party Rock Anthem- LMFAO
I'm Yours- Jason Mraz
Fly- Nicki Minaj ft Rihanna
The Lazy Song- Bruno Mars
Wild Young Hearts- Noisettes
California King Bed- Rihanna
Speechless- Lady GaGa
Teenage Dream- Katy Perry
If I Never See Your Face Again- Maroon 5
I Need This- Jessie J
Forever Young- One Direction
Money Honey- Lady GaGa
Why- Busted
Disco Heaven- Lady GaGa
Written In The Stars- Tinie Tempah

I can't think anymore, but you can see that I struggle when someone asks me what my favourite song is. I've got too many! :) x and this doesn't mean these are my favourite artists, these songs are just amazing :)

What are your favourite songs?

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You've left me speechless.

I actually, genuinely, don't understand people. I mean, I thought it was just boys that were hard work and who lied to you. Turns out, it's both genders that fuck you up! Hooray! 

No but seriously, i am actually left speechless- and that's bad. I'm the most talkative, understanding person ever. And I think some people take advantage of that. I'm no pushover, however understanding I am. I'm a person, I hurt- and sometimes I think some people forget that. I have feelings, and I've been through so much crap and sometimes I want a bit of sympathy and a hug. Opportunities come up for me and have come up for me in the past that I haven't taken because of some people. There's one that could come up in a few years time, and I'm gunna take it. Because I just don't know where I stand anymore if I'm honest, I feel like starting all over again.

One day, I'm gunna look back on all what i've been through and hold my head up high, and laugh. 

Have I made a mistake?

So..i'm talking to an old friend who I had a lot of problems with. However, she was also my best friend and most times it was great. She did really fuck me about though, and my parents don't like her. But lately, I've been missing her. And we're talking and we're having a heart to heart. I really, really don't wanna get down again. Because I feel so healthy and more myself than ever. Is there such a thing as being friendly with her and feeling like myself? Also, I don't wanna let my parents down. They really, really don't like her. But I just cannot be bothered with looking the other way every time I see her and acting like we hate each other. Because we don't. Lifes too short to be hating. i just hope this time round, its a happy ending...

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars.

As 'Who You Are' blasts out of my laptop, I really concentrate on the words. I love how artists of today such as Jessie J and Lady Gaga are really saying embrace who you are! And I think its so inspiring and makes me love myself even more. And I honestly think everyone should love themselves. There's nobody else like you- that's wonderful! You're unique and beautiful and special in every single way, and singers like these two are really saying that. They've obviously had a tough time in their life at some point because they're that little bit different. It's disgusting what some people are like, that they hate everything so much that they have to hate on other people who perhaps like themselves. I may sound selfish or whatever, but I don't care. I've never hated myself, but i've never really loved myself either. But now, I really do. I'm confident with who I am and I don't take no shit from anyone else. Honestly, whatever people say it doesn't change what I think about myself.

Haha, so strange. like now i've been reminded of how I used to feel. Urgh breeeeeeath danielle. She's not worth it. She isn't worth my thoughts or whatever. blergh blergh blergh ok i'ma stop now! x

Smashbox Lipgloss in Pout.

What could be in my little Smashbox bag?

.....

Lipgloss!

This gorgeous lipgloss is called Pout. It's a lovely light pink. The photo doesn't do it justice- it's seriously spectacular!

So, I went to Whiterose with my Mum and we, like usual, ended up in Debenhams! And I noticed the Smashbox counter and was instantly drawn to this lipgloss. The assistant was adamant that I tried it on and got made up! At first I was like ooh no people are watching! But she was so nice to me and I just thought what the hell!? So I sat in the chair and started being pampered! The girl put Pout on my lips, and then went on to apply some blush! (i've forgotten the name, silly meee!) But i totally loved it! The lipgloss wore off a bit and it's evening time so my mum would think i'm weird for reapplying it...but here's a photo of me with the lipgloss and the blush on :)

Alsoooo, we went to the perfume counter and I stopped by the Juicy Couture bit and smelt Couture Couture- and I'm in love!

They all smell lovely though! :D

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One of the good things left in the world.

Different styles, different artists. However, music is the one thing that helps unite people that little bit closer together. The love for a band or certain type of guitar can give you years of conversation, memories and concerts. Music has the power of making me feel every single emotion out there, but nothing but love and admiration for the artist. Listening to songs I adore fills me with utter joy and happiness. I physically cannot go a day without listening to music. It's my drug.

From The Beatles to Lady Gaga- I honestly cannot pin point a specific genre of music. I have utter admiration for particular artists. Rock will always be in my heart, however. With my Dad being in a few bands in his younger days, I grew up listening to heavy rock bands- with the occasional sing a long to Status Quo. Some people joke and laugh about that, but it doesn't bother me. They'll never feel the emotional connection I feel with every single band or singer I have ever liked. Honestly, I do feel a connection. I get attached and I love. Music is there for me when nobody else is, there for anybody. Whoever first listened with their ears and incorporated it with their hands, voice, and passed their wisdom down- I salute you. Because if it wasn't for people like that, we probably wouldn't have the music that we have today. Even if I don't like an artist, of corse I'll applaud them. They'll be making an impact on somebody's life, it just might not be my cup of tea.

I know this is such an in depth post, but I feel so passionately about music. I wish my Dad had got his shot- his band almost got signed twice, it just wasn't meant to be. When I hear my Dad still singing their songs today, I really listen to the words. And you know what? I bet if they'd have kept at it, they'd have made it and their songs would have gone down in musical history. I'm not saying this because he's my Dad and i'm therefore bias, but the lyrics are genius. They vary from romance to rock, to imperfection. They remind me of The Beatles lyrics- beautifully polished. Down below will be pictures of some of the artists I personally thank for their music. Because if these artists hadn't have followed their dreams, I may have fewer favourite songs and less love.

I thank John Mayer for 'Free Fallin', and for being so damn hot ;)

I thank Status Quo for going through with their concert with the flu!

And for always being there for my Dad :)

I thank AC/DC for being the greatest rock band ever. Rest In Peace Bon Scott.

I thank Nickelback for every single one of their songs. They're lyrical geniuses and 

have helped me through some bad times.

I thank the Kaiser Chiefs for being traditional Yorkshire Lads. Their very

first album is wicked and their songs are absolutely brilliant.

I thank Stereophonics for their different sound and incredible lyrics.

I thank Lady Gaga for telling her fans it's good to be different.

I thank her for her lyrics because they're from her heart. I thank her

for putting her everything into her music.

I thank Rihanna for being that little bit different. For her catchy, upbeat songs

and unique lyrics. I thank her for simply being herself.

  I thank Chris Brown for not giving up, not even now. 

It makes me think giving up isn't the answer. If you want it, you gotta work for it no matter

what anybody else thinks.

Most of all, I thank Busted for being there for me during my childhood, and even now I can't get enough of them. Charlie's voice is absolutely gorgeous and it melts me. Listening back through their old hits, I now can appreciate the music. The lyrics are very clever and I love them so much even if they're no longer together. 'Why' will remain one of my favourite songs forever. 'Well maybe a change would keep me high, stop me thinking and wondering why' are my favourite ever lyrics from a song. They just speak to me like no others.

I can't believe i forgot these!
Daughtry- I thank you for your inspirational songs. You have made a huge impact in my life and you are one of my favourite bands and you will be forever. Chris' powerful, beautiful vocals just leave me in total ore of him. I absolutely love this band with all my heart.

There are so many more artists I could thank, but I'd be here all day and night. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that music is everything to me. 

Thank you for reading. Please tell me your musical inspirations x

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I wanna go back to Holland so much.
I've found out I can't trust anybody.
I feel like I'm growing up, i'm becoming more mature dealing with situations.
I feel like sometimes, people forget i'm there. I have feelings too, I hurt too.

Chris Brown

First off, I apologise to anyone who is still in shock over the whole Chris Brown, Rihanna thing. But I can't help it. I just love Chris Brown too much.

To say I love Rihanna so much, I do still love Chris Brown. He's amazingly talented and I think that's what attracts me to him. He's just got one of those voices that I totally get lost in. His eyes are gorgeous(even though you can't see them in the pic...) and I just enjoy listening to his music.

Cuteeeeeee!

I just can't stop listening to his music. His new album F.A.M.E is off the chain wickedddd! Beautiful People, Paper Scissor Rock, Should've Kissed You and Next To You are my faves.

I don't really care about what people think of him to be honest, because it won't change my opinion of him. Even through everything, I'm still a fan. Love you CB :) x

Urban Decay 'Naked' Palette!

What A Beauty!

This gorgeous eye shadow palette by Urban Decay has been on my wishlist for a while now! I went to London and my mum got me it for when I came back! She knew I loved it so much so she went to get it for me, bless her! (:

The shadows are absolutely beautiful. I wore the 2nd one from the left and the 4th one from the right today and they're lovely. I can't wait to try more looks with it!

Mwah! I lurrve it x

Holland- work experience!

I'm back from 5 days working in Holland for work experience and I have to say, it was one of the best weeks of my life! :) I met some a-maaazing people who I hope to see again in the future. Everyone was nice to me and to be honest, I wanna go back! :P

Just a few little snapshots of my time in Holland :)

oh, by the way...anybody else got Lookbook? I've just got it and i'm confused hehe, fan me if you have it? Danielle Brear is my name on it and I haven't posted anything yet. They're very strict with their rules lemme tell ya! Hopefully i'll get the hang of it soon...it's like Tumblr all over again.. :L

Life- it's so very different.

This time last year, I liked a guy doing his work experience in my form. Now, it's my turn for work experience. And what all happened, the feelings are so fresh that they feel like it happened yesterday. But it didn't. My week of happiness and many months of heartache are all a thing of the past- I simply have to take it as a learning experience. Learn that, life- it's not easy. But the thing is, learn. Learn from your mistakes and listen to those around you and the advice available. Also, I've learnt that some guys aren't going to treat me right, treat anybody right. It's simply down to personality and upbringing.

It's a sad thought, however. Exactly a year ago on Thursday was one of the happiest days of my life. I felt on top of the world. So much has happened, however in London we didn't exactly have a conversation...but I don't know, it doesn't sound like much. We looked at each other and exchanged words. I think once he got over the fact that his friends were talking to me, that I was actually a pretty down to earth, fun girl. I know he knows he got me wrong, I accept what has happened. What I loved was talking to my once best friend, that fills me with utter joy. I'll remember it forever.

So, what will my life be like in another year then? I've already experienced something like this. I used to like this guy not October 2010, but October 2009. And at my school we do a run every year for charity. In October 2009, I remember seeing the guy running around and me thinking "wow, he's gorgeous!" and "i'll never get to talk to him!" ... fast forward a year, and I had been out and about with him at least 10 times, got his phone number, been to a festival with him, layed on him in a car and had long, heart to heart conversations. October 2010- he told me he liked me. A year ago, my thoughts were totally different- it was just weird and nice to think, wow..this wasn't like this this time last year.

Anyway, this brings me back to my original point. What on earth will my life be like next year? Busy, i'm guessing what with Year 11. But I'm also very optimistic about my future. The world is a big place with many doors just waiting to be opened, and I want to unlock as many as I can.

London 2011.

Two of the best days of my life.

I'm sorry, but I'm not going to go into too much detail, because I have a fear that if I do, things will come crashing down. But lets just say that I am extremely happy and cannot wait to see what the future may bring. Friends are like diamonds, they need to be treasured. And I promise to treasure every single one of my friends and future friends. Some people don't know what they have, or take advantage of it. The truth is, I learnt my lesson a long time ago- and I'm determind never to make the same mistake again. Life comes with it's mistakes for sure, but learning from them is wise and makes us stronger. Life isn't easy. But treasuring your friends and the people around you will make your life closer to a living dream. Dreams can come true, after all.

Now, for a description of the shows. We went to see 'The 39 Steps' and 'Legally Blonde.'
The first show was in a small, compact theatre. There were four actors on stage all multi-roling. It was clever and funny, however it was hard to get your head around- I could have done with someone to explain it after. Also, they had a smoke machine which let loose every five minutes- which wasn't helpful as I was riiiiight at the front! Was annoying as well because I had to look up all the way through because I was so close to the stage. On the plus side, during the break I was really thirsty and tried haggling my friend for one. During this night, I made a new friend. Who know's where it'll go, I'll just go with the flow (:

And as for Legally Blonde? 'OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD YOU GUYS!' it was amaaaaazing! It was girly and basically, like Barbie on stage! It was totally American and just amazing. But I didn't mind that one bit, it was a total change to the seriousness of The 39 Steps. Also, they had two dogs starring in it which were soooo cute! A little chihuahua and a bulldog- adorable! The main character really reminded me of me- everyone misjudged her because she was blonde- they thought she was a bimbo. But she sure proved them wrong and found true love- I teared up a little bit, because she was so obsessed with her ex and so in love with him, that she couldn't see her new friend was in love with her. The song she was singing about love, 'what about love?' what was her reason to stay at law school? Her new friend exclaimed the song 'what about love?' and my heart just ached for him. It was a beautiful, magical story and i'd totally see it again! I wanna be in it!

So anyway, I saw some amazing sites. We went to The Hard Rock Cafe and saw some amazing rock n roll stars' instruments. It was just a truly amazing trip and I would love to re-live it. But I can't, all I have is my memories. My memories of the capital of the country, spending it with people who I admire and people who I love. I believe in true love, you know.